Who Would Want to Associate with Someone Whose Entire Future is a Series of Question Marks?

The other day I was feeling down. Not just a normal down, but a MAJOR down that I don’t feel very often. I was frustrated. I had been having one of the worst blood sugar days since diagnosis full of rapid spikes and rapid drops, and the combination of that plus hormones plus stress was not a good mix.


I’ve always had a a wide social circle. It’s one of the benefits/downfalls of being “an introvert with an extroverted personality” (Read about that here). But over the years due to different reasons, my circle has shrunk. And it feels like since diagnosis and especially since I became a diabetes advocate, I’ve become distant from nearly everyone.


Just because I’m bionic doesn’t mean I’m not still human. It doesn’t mean I don’t need support too. I try to be strong but I’m far from it most days.

Musing in between lows, I tweeted the title of this post. Why? Because it’s a valid thought and an honest observation. When someone goes through something that is just too difficult to understand or deal with, the [unfortunate] normal human response is to pull away. Self preservation? Probably..

I mean, I get it. Diabetes is flippin scary. A lot of diseases and disorders are scary, and it would probably be difficult to be friends with someone who could be alive and “fine” one day and not wake up the next. That is hard for me to imagine and I’m the one that could not be here tomorrow. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t need love and support too.

So love a diabetic today. They might need that little extra boost of love and support more than you realize.

(Special thanks to my friend Amanda Arce who said the right thing at the right time in response to my tweet. Thank you!)


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7 responses to “Who Would Want to Associate with Someone Whose Entire Future is a Series of Question Marks?

  1. You are too nice. 🙂 I love reading your blog & being part of your journey, even if it’s from so freakin many miles away.

  2. Andy Duecker

    You are loved and admired by many people Bug. I have people tell me all the time how impressed they are with you. They tell me what a strong and amazing girl I raised. They say what a good job I did. I say I can’t take credit for it. It is all you and the incredible person you have become.

  3. annita

    I have pulled away a bit as my MS has worsened. I want to assure everyone that all is well. I tell them I am “mentally strong”. Which is true, but certainly not the full truth. I don’t want to overshare either. It seems to be a conversation stopper sometimes. There is an awkwardness in my new reality. Just wanted you to know that I get it. I love you. And you are always in my prayers.

  4. My husband was diagnosed as a diabetic this spring. It doesn’t matter to me (as long as I know that he’s doing the best he can to manage it and take care of himself). I love him no matter what!

    Keep taking care of yourself and the important people will always be there!

  5. Days like that leave you frustrated, but also knowing who your real friends are. Hope today is better.

  6. I can surely relate. However, do remember that back before the 20s, as Type 1s, we wouldn’t be lucky enough to even be bionic, we’d just be gone. My hats off to all those T1s who didn’t even have the hope of the miracle substance of insulin to keep them going. Remember too that since that time, the average lifespan of all humans has drastically increased thanks to science. It’s not just T1s who are living longer because of technology, the whole world is affected by it. As we move on into the future, technology will play a larger and larger role. Overall what I’m saying is – you’re part of a bigger club than you may realize 🙂

  7. btw – I’m focusing mostly on the “bionic” part of your post. In terms of the bad days – definitely the suckiest part of being a T1 😦

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